Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Well isn't that just a pain in the...


A bad pain.

One of those "I just wanna go lay down for a week or two" kind of pains... But laying down hurts, sitting hurts, standing hurts... I can't get comfortable... The best I've felt in the last week was last night with an ice pack on my neck for 4 hours, and the times I've been so high on pain killers that I couldn't function.

Christmas was stressful. Lots of travelling, lots of indecision, and lots of food.

Everybody loved their hats! Yay me! (I've had requests for 5 more hats, and a scarf) I should have pictures in the next couple of days.

I did manage to finish my brother's sweater... But the hood came out HUGE, and it looks like a monk's hood... But my brother loves it, so I'm happy.

So, pain... Ribs are doing better, neck is nearly unbearable, I need to keep my head tilted slightly to the left... Hands are functional-ish, painful, dislocating, the usual. Umm... Ankle is still not healing, and my brace is causing my foot to dislocate at odd times.

I painted my finger nails with clear polish, and snowflake stickers, they're pretty!

What's new with you?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Holy Christmas Time Batman!

I've been ridiculously busy crocheting Christmas presents. The weather here has been horrendous... And I feel as though my body will quit on me at any moment.

Christmas presents: I've gotten about 2/3 through my list, and that includes all of the major ones... I've finished all of the pieces of my brother's sweater, I just have to sew it together now. And I think I may have added 5 more people, plus 2 gift exchange presents to my list of stuff to do. There's FOURTEEN DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS, AM I INSANE!?!?!?!?

The weather is making me extraordinarily busy at work, as well as increasing my achy pains everywhere. It's getting quite difficult to have any kind of restful sleep. Last night I slept for 4 hours, and woke up with minimal pain (and minimal energy). The night before I slept for 8-9 hours, without moving, and woke up with numerous dislocations (lots of energy upon waking, which was quickly sapped away due to the pain). I have to find the sweet spot again, the one where I get enough sleep without waking up in pieces. It's a difficult balance.

Speaking of dislocations, my hands and ribs are getting worse, and my ankle is still struggling to remain intact inside my brace. I would really like to be able to wear my winter boots, but it's an either/or with the brace.

I've also been randomly depressed the last couple of weeks, I just feel like I need to cry, and I honestly can't find a reason for it.

Don't know if I'll be able to post again before Christmas with all the projects that need finishing... I haven't even made it to the chiropractor in over a month...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


I didn't shed a single tear on the third anniversary of my father's death. It's been a while since I've cried for him. I don't know if this means I've finally reached acceptance, or if it just means I'm getting better at bottling my emotions. I can often feel the tears well up when I think of my dad. I can't watch a movie or t.v. show that has any father/daughter issues, or the death of a father without tears welling up. The tears don't spill over though. They don't run down my cheeks, or off the tip of my nose any more.

I can't remember his voice.

In other news...
I started crocheting my brother's sweater again... Twice... The first sweater I made was too small, so I switched to a bigger crochet hook, and went up a pattern size. That one turned out way too big for my brother... But it should fit my husband. Then I started another one with the bigger crochet hook, and the first pattern size I used. It looks like it should fit nicely.

I also made my gramma a poncho. It's charcoal colored chenille. It's so SOFT! And WARM!

And I made my sister's hat. It's purple, and pink, and FUZZY!

Oh, and I fell down on the weekend... My hubby smacked my ass, knocked me off balance, and I just crumpled to the floor. I wasn't wearing my ankle brace, so I re-stretched my still-not-healed tendons. That was fun...